personal

08
Feb

Between Curiosity and Despair

A friend asked me recently what I'd do if with my time if money and the endless obligations of attempting to maintain a middle-class lifestyle weren't a problem anymore. I had had a few drinks surprised myself by saying that I'd just like to spend time learning things. This is one of those good conversation starters that actually cuts to the core of somebody, and while I think at a surface level of thought I'd say something like "make the world a better place" or "make great art" or whatever, on some instinctual level the thing I like most in

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04
Feb

Earning Relaxation

A short entry for the 21st day of my hundred days: I'm taking a sick day today, after a sleepless night of intense stomach pain (most likely because I ate too many almonds, which I did not realize was a thing until I was doubled over in pain at 2am last night). I actually tend to enjoy sick days, because it's a time when I feel like I've earned the right to relax. Most of the time I am so caught up in the things I need to do, or feel like I should be doing, that things that should

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02
Feb

Sunday Loop

Day 19 of this hundred days project and the weekend malaise is setting in. When I'm not following my set weekday schedule, I find it a lot harder to make time to write - weekends are full of tasks, social engagements, and things that pull me away from my desk (good) and make me forget to write (bad). It is, overall, probably a good thing that I do things like chores, exercise, and all the other stuff I have to do to keep my mind right, but man, do I really have to keep doing this every day for the

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30
Jan

Some Things I Believe

I spent a while today working on adding animations to a Jupyter notebook in anticipation of writing a follow-up to yesterday's post, but in a self-own I will never stop repeating I forgot to push them to git and I don't want to spend another two hours rewriting the same code. I'll write that up eventually, but for today, I have been thinking a lot about what people believe and why they believe it. Obviously, the various ghouls and goblins currently in control of America are a big factor in that, as are their feckless opposition who appear to believe

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20
Jan

Now Is Usually A Bad Time

For the 2,922nd day in a row, it's the stupidest day in American history. I am spending the day addressing save the dates for my wedding and slow-cooking some short rib. It feels strange to be going about my usual business during world-historical moments, but since "weeks where decades happen" have been happening with an alarming regularity for quite some time, it seems like the only thing to do.

In retrospect this was a pretty bad week to decide to give Bluesky a shot. I used Skybridge to import my old follows from Twitter (which was a pretty smooth

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