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brent bailey's personal weblog
23
May

Still Processing

A thing people tell you a lot when someone dies is that you need to process it. It was never very clear to me what that actually means. I know everyone meant well but mostly when people told me this, or asked me how I felt, it felt like I had failed some sort of test. There was some process I was supposed to be going through, some new understanding or perspective I was supposed to find, but all I ever really had to say was some variation on "my mom died, it sucks, I'm sad about it." This remained

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06
Apr

When Craft Matters

Late last year I experienced a period of existential terror about the rise of AI in programming. I did not want to be left behind, unprepared for a world where all code is written by LLMs and the role of a programmer shifts to something more like overseeing an assembly line. So I bit the bullet, plunked down $20 for a Claude Code subscription, and got to work vibecoding away at a few different projects.

My initial work with Claude was pretty mindblowing. I was able to crank out in a day projects that previously would have taken me weeks.

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30
Mar

March Update/Links/Screenshots

I got diagnosed with ADHD this month. This will likely come as no surprise to anyone who knows me even a little bit - I've already been getting treated for it on and off for the last few years, and given my entire deal it's not a terribly shocking development. They had me fill out a survey about how often I forget things and how much my struggles with executive function cause me difficulty in my personal life ("Highly Agree" in both cases) and then do the Conners Continuous Performance Test, where various letters flash on the screen at different

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20
Feb

Live Forever As A Time Worm

Or how I learned to stop worrying and hate Interstellar


Originally given as a talk at MindSwap #4, 2/7/2026.

Ever since I was young I have been obsessed with time's arrow. This is in large part because as soon as I became aware of the possibility of eternal death - around age 8, if I remember correctly - I have been consumed by both terror and the desire to outwit it. The strategies most commonly recommended to me are to "make peace with it" or "find god", but neither has proved particularly effective.

So to conquer my fear

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30
Jan

January Update/Links/Screenshots

After averaging 9 posts a month last year, I have gotten off to a slow start this year. Mostly this is because, at least for right now, I have no daily project to write about. One of my takeaways from writing at such a frenetic pace last year was that it would be nice to actually take my time drafting and editing things. I have been doing this, but it's a bit of a monkey's paw: when I don't just immediately hit "publish" after writing something I often end up either deciding it was a bad idea or making tweaks

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